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Tuesday, 03 March 2009

"Ummm"

     OMFG! I am such a fucking idiot! What is wrong with me?!?!?! Seriously, I want to punch myself in the face.... BAH!

    Okay, to my imaginary viewers, I'm going to explain what is going on -.-.... So a group of friends and I hung out today because we had no school. After I had dropped everyone off except Allie we were just chilling looking at the stars. I wanted to make a move but because I'm a fucking PUSSY, I just talked to her. We talked about a bunch of stuff. We are so much alike to tell the truth. But I finally started the car to drop her off. I stop in front of her house and she opens the door. I give her a nice long hug. I pull back not even thinking and look at her. She is just looking at me waiting for me to do something. Then she says "Ummmmmmmm" and I said "What?" in an interested way. She says "nothing" and starts to leave, she realized she forgot her hat so she grabs it and runs away and shuts the door kinda hard... I'm such a fucking idiot.... BLAH! If she had a big ass sign that said "Jordan, fucking kiss me," I would have been like... "whattt???" I am so stupid and have no balls... I need to fucking grow some for crying out loud. I'm an idiot!!!!

     Gah, I am stupid... seriously! I hope she doesn't think I don't like her. I tried to show her that in a myspace message I sent her. I was like - so hopefully sometime we can do something with less people... like me and you... and that's it :D. I'm so stupid...

BLAHkja;sldfj;asldfk;lj!!

Saturday, 28 February 2009

Meh

Well... I have just realized something. I am lost. Yes, there are multiple meanings to that phrase, but I'm referring to the emotional/mental part. I fret over the stupidest things like hair. I have fine hair... yes, a curse. I'm probably going to go bald in like 20 years. In public if the discussion of baldness arrives I will throw in, "If I go bald, I go bald." This gives off the image that I will be fine with it, but truthfully, I probably won't. But seriously, why do I care so much? Because of girls. I have always had this idea that if I don't find someone before my hair falls out, I will never find someone. I'm worried of growing old alone, which scares the shit out of me. I want to find someone just like me: weird, likes to cosplay, looks at the world a different way than most, and who does not mind acting like an idiot in public. I have a feeling this severely distorts my perception of someone I could potentially date. It makes me too clingy and I KNOW it, but I have trouble not doing it. My idea is if I don't impress this one, then I might not have another chance. BLAH! xD. Well, anyways. I just read a friends blog on myspace. I have to say, it "moved" me, bahah, stupid word. She spoke of how in order to truly love someone, then you have to love yourself first. This is a very interesting theory. I think I'm going to give it a shot. I am just trying to find who I am, and what I'm doing in this world. If "god" or "evolution" could just give me super powers or something, my life be fucking amazing! I can see it now--I hang out with a certain girl I am interested in and while we are walking down an alley, 5 or 6 people walk towards us dressed in black with pimp walks xD (Allie ^^). They first run up to me and starting beating the shit out of me. I try and fight back and succeed slightly. I tell the girl to run; she does, but they catch her and push her against the wall. Then out of no where, *BAM*, something in me snaps. I fucking... *thinking of super power* travel to her in an instant *super speed* and smash the guy who is grabbing her in the face *super strength*. Then I turn and look at the guys who were just beating me up and my eyes glow red in the shadows cast over my body (I guess I'm a vampirish person? lol). They start to run, but I catch them in a split second and basically beat the shit out of them so they don't ever do anything like abducting people in alleys and what not. Then I step towards the girl and she is like *omg vampire*, then she touches me, and my eyes turn back to normal, my teeth shrink, and I calm down. Bahaha, I should write a book or something. I don't know. I feel like I'm missing something or someone. Hopefully I find it. Well, I have to get up at like 5:00a.m. tomorrow morning. I better get some ZzZzzZzzzzsss.... Peace.

Tuesday, 17 February 2009

Konichiwa!

     So! I haven't been on here in a while. Busy with boxing/work/school (I hate school). My friend and I are working on a light saber video. We just finished the practice sabers and we will be working on our choreography for a while. Whenever we finish the video I will probably post it on here if anyone cares.

     So in Literature class we are going through books extremely fast. It took around two weeks to finish "A Separate Peace." I'm going to give it a 6 out of 10. It was not the greatest book in the library. The stupid author kills off the best character in the book at the end. Not even in a cool way though. If he got hit by a car or... shot... that would be wayyy better. But instead he dies while in surgery for a broken leg... It's really sad. Supposedly the bone marrow found its way into his heart. Yeah, whatever.

     Okay, so my pikachu costume! I'm still looking for light brown material which reminds me, I need to print out a picture of that brown so I can match it if I find it in a store. Well anyways, I'm done with the pants, and the shirt aside from the stripes on the back. I just need to make the tail and ears and I should be set for ACen and Jafax. I'm psyched!!!!!!!!

Sunday, 25 January 2009

Holy poop! I am more sore than a virgin vs. a black man. Boxing has raped me backwards and sideways with no lube! Back when my brother was helping me lift, I thought I had it bad. Nope. Boxing is five times harder. I have lessons on monday, wednesday, and friday every week. Each time we probably do about 500 pushups, 500 situps, and a plethora of exercises. It is basically constant work for two hours straight. To tell the truth, it is kind of relaxing. I can just get away from the real world and take all my emotions on a punching bag. I want to be the best of the best though. Right now they have me focusing on my jab only. Honestly, I feel like a man without a penis. I know my jab is going to be my main punch, but I still feel incapacitated without my right xP. I guess I will have to tough it out until the instructor feels I am ready. Oh, another thing! I can't conquer the speed bag damnit. I have the basic method down and can get it going pretty fast, but not as fast as I want to. Once again I'm wanting to be extremely good right off of the bat, but I guess I will have to accept that it is going to take time.

Omg, this font is a pain in the ass... Only 6 months until I am in college and free of Catlin - the worst town in the history of towns... ever. Holy mosus, I hate that place with a passion. We don't even have a drama or a chess club... it's sad to tell the truth. Oh! No swimming either. The ceiling of the building is slowly falling off, but wait, we can afford an extremely expensive track... WTF? Seriously. Blah, I am not going to miss Catlin, nor the people in it. The few people I will miss are... Lucas Risser, Mrs. Holman, and Mr. Wolf. That's it... Meh. Well, I'm off to read again. Peace out! Oh and stay tuned for my lightsaber discusion!!! Mwahahaha >: )

Tuesday, 20 January 2009

The Genesis!!!!

   So this is my first entry! Woooo..... Yeah, I have had a Xanga before, but it was abandoned long ago when I had a devil for a girlfriend >:(. But anways. I guess I'm going to just rant about whatever I feel like and maybe people will respond, making me a very popular person on Xanga so I'll end up doing a commercial ad or something ^^. Haha, yeah right. Anyways... here I go!
      "I hope the Barak Obama gets shot." These are the words of my classmates who will eventually amount to nothing! The day I run into them at a fast food restaraunt and they ask me, "Do you want fries with that?" I'm going to laugh my ass off! I can't stand my school! The whole lot of em are racist and idiotic. They don't realize what would happen if he was to actually be shot. The black community would spill with chaos all because of a ignorant red neck with three eyes that he attained by shagging his sister. I mean come on: Grow UP!!
   I'm going to an anime convention called Jafax in Michigan this summer and I need a costume. I'm definitely going to be pikachu! The yellow pants I was working on are almost done. Now I need the yellow shirt with brown stripes on the back, the tail attached to the pants, and the ears. I can't decide if I want ears that go on a headband, or ears that go on a yellow stocking cap. Then I just need some red circles and a black nose and I'm set. Oh, and some yellow shoe covers. I'm so psyched. I love making costumes.
   So I have been fiddling with the sewing pattern for the pants for about four hours! The pattern is harder than... hard. The instructions are not very thorough either. I just finished the crotch region and need to do the crotch up to the waist and the elastic waist band ^^. It will be very time-consuming and aggravating I am sure. I will post a picture of them whenever I finish, along with the other materials and, eventually, the whole costume assembled.
   Well, I'm dying to read Brisingr so... bye :). I will see whoever watches... whenever I make my next entry!

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Hey, my name is Jordan. I'm 17 years old and am going to graduate from high school this year (2009). Then I will be heading towards the University of DePaul!!! I can't wait for college!!! Umm. I have a job, like to draw, attend anime conventions, play video games, sew, and take pictures. I listen to metal mostly but my taste in music varies quite a bit. I box and that is about all you creepy pedophiles need to know.